didn't stop flowing. It all started with my 4 year old daughter acting like a teenager when
we went swimming. She didn't want me anywhere near her and kept saying she wanted
to be on her own and giving me seriously bad attitude, oh and that she just wanted Dada.
Usually this doesn't really upset me but I'm now 32 weeks pregnant and hormones are
getting a bit rife. Things got worse after that when she wouldn't listen to a word I would
say and kept running off plus my bump was seriously aching. A little shouting episode
from me when she nearly ran into the road and then it was all, 'Daddy, daddy, daddy'
of course. It is the way of the child and especially our child!
So what with daughter acting up, I had all the house chores to attend to, you know
cleaning the house - I'm not mental about cleaning but I do like a clean home. I've asked
for help regarding these tedious tasks but they seem to get ignored. (Although husband
has just put up a toilet roll holder I asked him to do 3 years ago! Progress!) Just because
I have tits I seem to be definitely the one that has to attend to these jobs otherwise they
wouldn't get done. I pay the bills, try and save us money by changing companies, make
sure the laundry is done, make sure there is food in the cupboards, that the dinner's cooked
and that everyone is getting their quota of proper nutrition, remember to take my medication
everyday and learn more about my health issues. I do the gardening, clean the car, change
light bulbs... you know just normal boring life crap.
Oh and then I have a business. I find the stock, list the stock, design graphics for the site,
create emails, engage with customers, trawl the internet for humorous things to post on
Facebook, Pinterest, Twitter and Instagram, try and write exciting, entertaining and thought
provoking blog pieces. I try and find new ways to excite customers and promote sales, gain
new customers and get more sales, oh and get even more sales as at the end of the day
I have bills to pay and these need covering! I want to earn money from this whilst promoting
amazing designers and helping to neutralise the whole gender stereotyping. I have advertising
to pay for, new stock to pay for, I try and find fairs or events I can sell at, I try and understand
SEO, marketing, Google Analytics and am constantly thinking of ways I can promote and
improve burp without spending a fortune. I need to expand my email database but how do
I do this? More competitions? More special discounts? The business is in a state of rigour
mortis at the moment which I don't understand. It's stressful, money is flowing out and not
enough coming back in to cover the x's. Oh and I'm expecting a baby at the end of April.....
and cried a bit more. Sometimes I think being the man would be easier. Just going to work
to earn the main money, coming home to a clean house, dinner and seeing the child for five
minutes to tuck up in bed. Eat, watch some crap telly, sleep and repeat. No worries about
anything else. No thoughts for the future, just to be in perpetual now - to me inertia.
That's my issue I'm never content with just now. I want to know that things are changing
and improving that we're starting to provide for our older years. I want exotic holidays with
my family, to show my kids different cultures, to go to festivals, to move house, I have a list
of desires and want an exciting life!
I started this business a) because I couldn't just be a stay at home mum, no offence to
all SAHM's out there, you probably have it more sorted than me but I need to use my
brain on other things, although am currently thinking this was all a bad idea!
b) to create a successful business which people love, to create a community
c) to be able to give a percentage of our profits to charities
d) and the rest of the money that I earn can go on our future life, holidays etc.
well, seriously tricky as it's never ending. If I went off to work for someone else I could
leave at 5.30pm and that would be it. With your own online business it's 24/7, there is
a lot of competition and you have to keep yourself fresh to be seen, be constantly active
to induce empathy and be wise to your budgets and who you spend your money with.
It's all a juggling act. Sometimes I just need a little help, but then I did start all of this as
I want a better future for us so we don't have to worry about every single penny spent.
So if you're thinking about starting your own business and you have very young children
or are pregnant just remember that there will be some very tough times ahead. There will
of course be glorious times too. I've met a host of lovely new folk through the social media
platforms, bloggers and wonderful suppliers, but on the other hand I have also met some
horrible suppliers, cliquey bloggers and money grabbing swindlers.
For the moment I'm thinking it will be nice for the business to tick over so I can concentrate
on baby number 2 and not have all these other stresses, just be mummy. Let's all hope the
Spring brings us all a slice of joy and happiness and I will keep deep breathing.
And to all those other mum's in business, you are amazing.